When life gives you a coach

Nine months ago I started on this journey with my training & nutrition coach @gj.lake into a better me.

I had given so much of me in all aspects, I lost my passion for myself. I needed to be healthier physically but also mentally & emotionally. I had zero desire to be competitive. I just wanted to move. Honestly I just wanted that low number on the scale. I wasn’t interested in being strong or fast. I was defining myself by that number. I found my worth in that number and at that time... my worth was low.

As the weeks / months went on; I started to realize who I was; what I am capable of and that I wasn’t defined by a number on a scale. I started really enjoying being challenged, getting stronger and faster. It’s like a “high”. The number on the scale didn’t matter anymore. I spoke the words “I wanted to be competitive”- all while in my mind I was still doubting myself. I signed up for Crash Crucible intermediate with Taylor... still doubting my worth and capabilities to even be competitive. I have to be honest and say I didn’t think I’d show up to compete until 2-3 days before 😱... Haha I showed up and it was so much fun! The enemy wants to take our confidence; so he can shut our light out....But he didn’t - I showed up confident in who I am, prepared & able to do what I’ve been training for.

Gordon constantly reminded me of these below; and if I allowed myself to be ok with it, I’d experience victory.

•There will be pain in this process.
•There will be tears.
•There will be fear.
•There will be uncertainty.
•There will be high days.
•There will be low days.
•There will be false shame & guilt.
•There will be confusion.

Here I am today, celebrating victory in knowing who I am, that I can do hard things, I am worthy, & I am strong.

Every day I have an opportunity to respond and how I choose to respond will determine my next victory or set back.
Grateful to be on this journey & being pushed daily by Gordon to be a better me... not just in the gym, but in my spiritual walk, marriage, relationships, career and day to day.

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